DiSaPpOiNtEd!~
After NUS bash in China Black...urgh...though lotsa gers around...but i wasn't happy...indeed...i'm very sad...i dono y...
E ger (B) i like...went ytd...actually i still carrying those kinda feeling tt i'll still be able to touch her heart someday...but no no no no....i was fugging wrong...i am such a silly fool...she'll nv be mine...I'VE GAVE UP!~after the incident... n i swear to jesus christ....i'll nv ever...try to win her heart anymore!~ I SWEAR!~! in the morning...she was askin whether if i wan her to go anot...of cos i wan...but i was tinkin..wat if she goes there...dance wif guys...hugging wif them...and all sorta shit!~ i noe i'm tinkin too much..den ya, she didn't dance wif other guys.....she dance....wif my buddy!~ we're dancing on the dancefloor at 1st...went up to platform...den B...was still down there...i ask her to come up...but she refused...she den asked me to follow her to another platform...so i did...but when we reached the other side...there's no space available...so we went back to find my frenz they all....den she jus went up to the platform..leaving me down on the floor...urgh...but i didnt mind tt...den after some dance...my bud and B suddenly disappeared...den i saw them went to the bar...drinkin... tequila i suppose...den i was quite down...cos y him again...but i guess he had no choice...
den den den......i was already very frustrated when 2 gigantic fuckers...keep on banging me...i tried hard to elbow them..but no use...they're to huge...wat the fug can i do!~ den...... den...... den....turning my head round again to search for B...to my horror...she was dancing wif...my bro....dirty dancing...! the moves r beautifully executed...both of them simply the perfect combination...very close...i tried to turn away....but my head jus wouldn't...even i closed my eyes...i still can see them danicng...my mind was corrupted...I was so disappointed...of cos...i am jealous....who dun jealous seeing the ger u like dancing wif...ur bro whom she likes...who dun jealous u tell me!~ i was so damn irritated...fuckers bangin me...bro dancing wif loves one... and not somewhere in a corner...they're on platform...noe how others will tink...all my frens around noes i like B...but she was happily dancing wif my bro...right in my face!~ wat the fug....ya? WAT THE FUG!! its jus like a dagger stabbing in my eyes! a pole thrusting thru my head! or mayb make it simpler...a bullet right thru my already weaken heart!!
Wat shld i say...its jus pure disappointment...though i noe its jus dancing...but i jus couldn't stop myself from tinkin abt the dark side...who will tink bright now btw...at this kinda situation!..FUG IT IF U'RE TINKIN THE BRIGHT SIDE!~ i'm damn pissed...super pissed...i dun wanna be a spoil spot u noe!~ but i jus couldnt be happy...i tried to be...but no way... duhz....i feel like bashing up my bro....but no... y no...cos he's my bro.... "8 years" wat to say abt this duration...the thick n thin we've been thru...so i wun beat him up...but saying this 8years...he can still hack care my presence...while dancing...tt's fugging pissing me off...DISAPPOINTED ish the right word...
though he came to apologised after tt....but shit....wats the sorry for...B is nothing to me...jus pure frenz....i hav no rights to stop u all...duhz... u can said i'm attitude....wat to do...tt's me...when this kinda situation arised...i admit i cant handle it well...or mayb i shld go read books n evaluate the solutions to it...meantime... i admit....i already admit... I'VE LOST.... n not jus lost...i've been THRASHED!~ i felt guilty whenever i spoil every1 mood...tt's y i asked u all conmtinue go dance n dun care abt me...duhz...i hate to be a spoiler...i hate to let ppl see i'm sad... i hate to hate ppl...and i hate being betrayed...though i felt abit ytd...but i noe its jus my illusion...
after tt....i dun wish to said further more...i'm down...indeed...very down...
Some words for B if u read this: This post is against nobody! seriously...i jus speaks from my heart...how i felt...and ya...if u've found the right 1...or mayb there's more choices for u...make up ur mind n decide...indecision is the worst thing i've ever encountered...and i really canot stand the amount of cig. u smoked! i dislike smokers...though i do smoke...when i'm down or mayb too high...tt's y i hate myself! i'll nv wans to be addicted! i hope u quit someday...ASAP...and i hope...i hope tt we dun hav to sees each other for this meantime...n rest assure even if u sees me...i will still say "hi" and i will nv try to tink tt i stil gotta chance...as i said earlier...i've lost...and i gave up...if ever i gonna fan u again...i shall die terribly...wish u happiness and take this wish and live wif no regrets!~
Some words for my brother: I didn't blame u for wat u've done...i jus blame myself for being such a loser...losing everything as compared to u...who cares whether i can sing anot...actually i'm jealous...but duhz...wats tt for rite...no point...and hope this incident didn't affect our brotherhood...even if now there's a bullet shooting in ur direction...i will try to block it...but i hope this block is worth it...so even if i die...i will not regret for shieldin u...
sob sob~~ T.T
E ger (B) i like...went ytd...actually i still carrying those kinda feeling tt i'll still be able to touch her heart someday...but no no no no....i was fugging wrong...i am such a silly fool...she'll nv be mine...I'VE GAVE UP!~after the incident... n i swear to jesus christ....i'll nv ever...try to win her heart anymore!~ I SWEAR!~! in the morning...she was askin whether if i wan her to go anot...of cos i wan...but i was tinkin..wat if she goes there...dance wif guys...hugging wif them...and all sorta shit!~ i noe i'm tinkin too much..den ya, she didn't dance wif other guys.....she dance....wif my buddy!~ we're dancing on the dancefloor at 1st...went up to platform...den B...was still down there...i ask her to come up...but she refused...she den asked me to follow her to another platform...so i did...but when we reached the other side...there's no space available...so we went back to find my frenz they all....den she jus went up to the platform..leaving me down on the floor...urgh...but i didnt mind tt...den after some dance...my bud and B suddenly disappeared...den i saw them went to the bar...drinkin... tequila i suppose...den i was quite down...cos y him again...but i guess he had no choice...
den den den......i was already very frustrated when 2 gigantic fuckers...keep on banging me...i tried hard to elbow them..but no use...they're to huge...wat the fug can i do!~ den...... den...... den....turning my head round again to search for B...to my horror...she was dancing wif...my bro....dirty dancing...! the moves r beautifully executed...both of them simply the perfect combination...very close...i tried to turn away....but my head jus wouldn't...even i closed my eyes...i still can see them danicng...my mind was corrupted...I was so disappointed...of cos...i am jealous....who dun jealous seeing the ger u like dancing wif...ur bro whom she likes...who dun jealous u tell me!~ i was so damn irritated...fuckers bangin me...bro dancing wif loves one... and not somewhere in a corner...they're on platform...noe how others will tink...all my frens around noes i like B...but she was happily dancing wif my bro...right in my face!~ wat the fug....ya? WAT THE FUG!! its jus like a dagger stabbing in my eyes! a pole thrusting thru my head! or mayb make it simpler...a bullet right thru my already weaken heart!!
Wat shld i say...its jus pure disappointment...though i noe its jus dancing...but i jus couldn't stop myself from tinkin abt the dark side...who will tink bright now btw...at this kinda situation!..FUG IT IF U'RE TINKIN THE BRIGHT SIDE!~ i'm damn pissed...super pissed...i dun wanna be a spoil spot u noe!~ but i jus couldnt be happy...i tried to be...but no way... duhz....i feel like bashing up my bro....but no... y no...cos he's my bro.... "8 years" wat to say abt this duration...the thick n thin we've been thru...so i wun beat him up...but saying this 8years...he can still hack care my presence...while dancing...tt's fugging pissing me off...DISAPPOINTED ish the right word...
though he came to apologised after tt....but shit....wats the sorry for...B is nothing to me...jus pure frenz....i hav no rights to stop u all...duhz... u can said i'm attitude....wat to do...tt's me...when this kinda situation arised...i admit i cant handle it well...or mayb i shld go read books n evaluate the solutions to it...meantime... i admit....i already admit... I'VE LOST.... n not jus lost...i've been THRASHED!~ i felt guilty whenever i spoil every1 mood...tt's y i asked u all conmtinue go dance n dun care abt me...duhz...i hate to be a spoiler...i hate to let ppl see i'm sad... i hate to hate ppl...and i hate being betrayed...though i felt abit ytd...but i noe its jus my illusion...
after tt....i dun wish to said further more...i'm down...indeed...very down...
Some words for B if u read this: This post is against nobody! seriously...i jus speaks from my heart...how i felt...and ya...if u've found the right 1...or mayb there's more choices for u...make up ur mind n decide...indecision is the worst thing i've ever encountered...and i really canot stand the amount of cig. u smoked! i dislike smokers...though i do smoke...when i'm down or mayb too high...tt's y i hate myself! i'll nv wans to be addicted! i hope u quit someday...ASAP...and i hope...i hope tt we dun hav to sees each other for this meantime...n rest assure even if u sees me...i will still say "hi" and i will nv try to tink tt i stil gotta chance...as i said earlier...i've lost...and i gave up...if ever i gonna fan u again...i shall die terribly...wish u happiness and take this wish and live wif no regrets!~
Some words for my brother: I didn't blame u for wat u've done...i jus blame myself for being such a loser...losing everything as compared to u...who cares whether i can sing anot...actually i'm jealous...but duhz...wats tt for rite...no point...and hope this incident didn't affect our brotherhood...even if now there's a bullet shooting in ur direction...i will try to block it...but i hope this block is worth it...so even if i die...i will not regret for shieldin u...
sob sob~~ T.T
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